July 11th 2008 MELBOURNE

Woo so I've been in Melbourne for a week and two days. Since being kicked out of Chilli blue, I felt I just wanted to leave. Me and Christine were pretty confused and felt like we werent all there and like aah what are we doing and we felt like our bodies were there but that was about it ha. I wanted to leave sydney all together really. I just felt like I had my time there. I wanted to go to Melbourne. I dont know why, I had heard so much good stuff about it, I had been told that I'd like it there. But I had no money and It was pretty much like a notion in my head to leave.

I did get a refund when we got kicked out of chilli blue, i had paid for another month the night before we got kicked out, which was $375, and fuckhead mike owed me like $150 for work that i did for him. what a twat. i hope his business dies.

anyway. so i got all that back on the morning that we left minus $45 for the pan i didnt wash. what a bitch! im gonna spraypaint mike is a fucker on chilli blue before i leave aus. hes such a lame dick egg

anyway. so we went to the next backpackers yadd yadda. i paid for two weeks.. because i 'knew' id be there for that long. man i feel like apple juice. and then fritterd the rest of my cash away. typical. butttt i started to do cleaning every morning at 6am for two hours for free accommadation

ah i cant even be bothered writing this it seems so irrelevant but maybe when im like 80 ill be like yay i wrote it

ok so yeah so then eventually i met these two from england, dax who was 18 from manchester and abbie who was from surrey and they were pretty cool, i met them when they checked in when i was cleangin one morning and we seemed to click pretty well, they checked into the same room as me so we ended up just talking and shit. they were pretty cool, the sensible type that have plans each day you know yeah.

so one day we all went for walkies round the opera house and harbour and shit and they were telling me about there plans about fuckin u know fuckin travelling and shite and they were telling me about how there gonna hire a van and go down to melbourne and back and i was just about to jokingly say 'i should tag along' and then abbie was like 'come with us! we need more people' so.. i thought about it.

it was a monday. they checked into the backpackers the sunday just before, and i had checked into it the thursday before. they were leaving in this hired hippie van the coming saturday.

then. as the days passed, as my money was gone, as my brain was frazzing with should i stay or should i go.. i felt inside i should go, and since i was thinking about it it couldnt have just been coincidence that the oppurtunity just arose in a matter of days to get out of sydney like i wanted.

so i felt the fear and did it. i fuckin gave in. andrea lent me about $400, true story, she is truly an amazing person, i went for a massage the day i left with this vouceher that andrea bought all of us one day. and the saturday came blah blah ho ho we left, stayed in blue mountains 2 nights amazing, fun road trip, cool, look at the pictures, and yeah.

oh.

the days leading up to coming to melb i emailed about a billion backapackers in melbourne to see if they had any work for accommadation, i got a few replies and went with a place called the nomads industry..

so blah blah. forward 4 days of road trip, reading into the wild, freezing my fucking skin off, sleeping in a van, staying in a campervan park with kanga pangaroos, ah i went to go take a photo of one and it like jumped out at me and purred really loud. then i had this fear that we would be woken up by a kanga family kicking our van. but that didnt happen.. phew.

so yeah. we stopped in canberra! the capital. honestly, even though its like so properly built and designed, and even though it has that massive parliament building, that city seems so forced. you can tell its just a small town in the middle of nowhere, with buildings all over it. we had a tour of the parliament building. oooOooOooOoOoHHhHH.

blah drive seep eat no shower, we got to Melbourne! It was so exciting going past the wecome to Victoria sign. new state. sweet as bro.

so yeah. we found the new backpackers/home.. i was going to. i checked in and found out id be doing cooking instead if cleaning.. which is ok. i was kinda nervous at first because i was like uh shit, 150 people five nights a week to cook for thats kinda scary. but ok. yeah i pretty much felt a good vibe off melbourne as soon as we got there.

abbie and dax left to go park somewhere for the night, while i went to my new room, checked out melbourne city with a night walk. it was great. i remember feeling so happy and so fresh and new and proud of myself to stepping foot alone in a brand new place. i loved the trams, the sound of them rumbling along the road.

i bought a doughnut for a dollar. it was horrible. ew and it had jam inside. i walked right down through the city to the big ol ferris wheel. the arcitechture in this city is so cool. theres this place and its got big steps and then this bit with a paved brick footpath bit and its all wavy like an earthquake.

then i found this alleyway, one of about a million in this city, and i walked down it in awe at all the amazing artwork along the walls. youd think there was like nothing down there but back doors, usually, if i saw an alleyway or something id walk right past it , but im learning to discover because the 'walls with nothing' are where 'its' at.

the next day i went down the same alley, and i was looking more in detail at the stuff on the walls and i heard music coming from somewhere.. loud.. cool music.. very close. i was wondering where it was coming from, then i had such a cartoon moment. i peeped through a hole in a fence and saw all these people drinking coffee and laughing. i wanted to know how to get in there and i found a door, and it opened up to a wonderful tiny little bar/cafe! so warm, and it had an outside, and i got a chai latte for $3. yummee.

so yeah.

so. its only been a week and two days, but i swear ive been here like a month already. the cookings going well, people love it. last night i made a vegetarian potato curry thing. yarghm!

ive made some aquaintances. last night we went out to this little bar. it was actually quite big. i keep walking past it wanting to go in there so we did yay. thats where my current default was taken. so yeah, i dont have any money to my name, my drinks were shouted last night, i had a margarita it was strong. and salty. it was good.

i have free food. a bed. shower facility. a cool city to be in everyday. im looking for a job., i wanna stay here for a while. once i get a job. i wanna move in somewhere. yeah. im such a freeloader. yeah but why not . the strokes are keeping me company. and tokyo police club. and daniel. and i miss andrea and christine.

i wanna write for vice magazine. how cool would that be.